July 2009
3 posts
Girls I would go straight for:
Blair Waldorf and Phoebe Buffay. Notice it’s the characters? Yeah, Blair’s a bitch and Phoebe is… Phoebe. I don’t want the actresses, just the characters. And I only have two because no matter how hard I used to try to be, I just don’t get attracted to girls at all.
I am: fed up of that title format.
I’m gunna stop doing it like that, it’s driving me insane. Me and Nate and Ryan went to Poway skate park the other day. It was awesome. I’m not much of a skater tbh, I did some of it before I got bored a few years ago but I got back on the board there. Named and shamed, lol. Ryan spent all his time trying to teach Holly from his chair (it didn’t go well at all xD) and also...
I am: leaving.
San Diego (and also Blink 182 in Boston!) with my best friend, my boyfriend and also my Joner buddy. Yes, this summer will kick arse.
June 2009
2 posts
I am: confused.
I’m still grieving for my mum. I’m angry at Desterey for being a cunt. I’m grateful to Ryan, Nate and Hiro for being… well really awesome. I’m excited to meet the famous Tatsuya. I’m sad that Ryan’s leaving. I don’t know what I should be feeling.
I admit: I never thought my life could really go...
Everything’s always been OK. My family had our difficulties but it always turned out well. I never thought that something so devastating could happen in our lives. Yesterday Mum and Dad were in a car crash. Dad is fine. Mum died in hospital last night. My whole family - nay, my whole life - is starting to fall apart right in front of my eyes. Mum and I had our differences but when I went to...
May 2009
12 posts
BGT should start again.
desterey:
It only just ended and I’m sad :< Greg Pritchard should audition next year please :> or get signed right now preferably! And Shaheen! :>
Simon, Amanda and Piers shouldn’t be the judges for that. Me, you and Nate should be. Greg would be voted automatic winner before he even sang, as long as he wore eyeliner and agreed to sleep with us. He’d be the first act on -...
Note to self: stop turning everything into a sex...
raddfayce:
raddfayce: I was playing drums on Rock Band earlier omnomnomchandler: I’d like to bang you like a drum! raddfayce: and I got JD to do the pedals raddfayce: UGH FUCK OFF omnomnomchandler: Ooh, he was down there was he? omnomnomchandler: that’s some kinky foreplay.
When I get a job and somebody says “Oh Chandler, here’s your tip”, I’m going to...
I think: People underestimate me.
I’m not really good-looking. I’m not really smart. I’m not really nice. Because I’m not an intelligent and loving male model, I think people overlook me. They dismiss me because they think “Well, Chandler’s average and he’s not going to be anything special”. Oh, how they will regret that when I shock them. Maybe I’ll turn into a 100-metre tall...
I admit: When I'm not with you, I'm thinking about...
And when I’m with you, I’m thinking about how amazing it is to be with you.
I have: one word.
HALLELUJAH! 17th November 2009, 7:30pm. Birmingham LG Arena. JONAS BROTHERS.
<3
I confess: I like people to notice me.
On the General Studies exam paper on Monday, there was a question about Black Death and the plague that killed the Romans and how if an epidemic (omg swine flu!) started up, we’d be ill-equipped and could all pop our clogs… I don’t remember the question exactly but I think it was about how the situation now is different to how it was in Roman times. I said, in my answer:...
“仲間の定義さえわからなかった メリハリないけど無難な日々
(I didn’t even know the meaning of friends;...”
– “メリメイキング (Merrymaking)” by AnCafe
Nate & Chandler
nateftw:
sounds really cute together.
Chandler & Nate sounds cuter because I like going first! I like you too much… I’m going to have to stop it :P
Everything Comes Down To Poo - Scrubs ‘My...
April 2009
15 posts
“I’m still the optimist, though it is hard
When all you want to be is in a...”
– Say Anything, ‘Woe’ (via desterey)
I confess: this is why I changed, Ry.
I wasn’t as together as you thought. I was confused and worried about my sexuality. I was worried about you being so ill and so upset about Tyler. I didn’t know where I was heading for the future. And I couldn’t handle it so I decided to cut you out of my life to see if that would ease the worry, but if I’m honest it didn’t. When you came back into school like 2...
I confess: I'm a virgin but told everybody else...
I dated a girl I wasn’t attracted to for 2 months and she was so into me. We almost had sex but I made excuses at the last minute because I wasn’t into her and knew I never could be because I’m gay. I told friends we’d had sex anyway because I was ashamed. I got carried away. I also told a tale of a one night stand with a guy which never actually happened. I lied because it...
Sphenopalatine ganglioneuralgia.
4chandler: i heard yo like xzibit and exhibits so i put xzibit in yo exhibits so yo can exhibit xzibit in yo exhibit
4chandler: fuck my brain hurts
4chandler: i have sphenopalatine ganglioneuralgia
raddfayce: The fuck?
4chandler: brain freeze
4chandler: someone said i'm a cold-hearted bastard
4chandler: and so if my heart's cold that means my blood's cold
4chandler: blood goes to the brain, ergo brain freeze
raddfayce: You're not a reptile, so you obviously don't have cold blood.
raddfayce: If you were a reptile then Desterey would have you by now.
4chandler: how dyou know he hasn't ;D
4chandler: he treats me better than the other lizards
4chandler: he strokes me in a different way
4chandler: yknow in the way you wanna stroke joe jonas
raddfayce: ...FML.
I'm happy today.
And the angels cried “Hallelujah, the Lord is smiling!”
“Relationships don’t work they way they do on television and in the movies....”
– Dr. Cox, Scrubs
People don't know: I've been suicidal at least 4...
I overdosed twice, tried to hang myself once and tried to drown myself the other time. I fobbed off the hospital visits as ‘accidental overdoses’ or “I fell asleep in the bath” and so on. I was never offered counselling although I’m sure they had some idea about what was really going on.
Dear you: Please be okay.
It’s like Nate said. We love you and don’t want anything to happen to you. I’ve never been a good friend to anybody but I’m extended my hand to you and offering to help you through until things get better because you’ve done the same for everybody else and even for me right now, when you’re the one that really needs it. We’re here for you, Desterey.
I want: to be able to say I am awesome and mean it...
I act like a cocky bastard to hide the fact that I hate so much about me. I’d rather people think I was an asshole than know what I’m really like. I wish I could really be the person I portray myself as.
I wish I'd told you: I loved you.
It’s too late to say this now, you’ve been dead years. I wish I had the guts to tell you the way I felt before you killed yourself. Part of me says you might not have done it if you knew you were loved but the other part says “Get over yourself Chandler, you’re not as great as you think you are, he would have gone ahead with it anyway”.
People don't know: I am so afraid of expressing...
The guy who tells constant jokes and basically acts like an arse isn’t me. Like Chandler Bing, I use humour as a defence mechanism because I don’t want people to know how insecure and afraid I really am. I hate seeming like I’m vulnerable or need protecting.
“This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it’s the last (thing left on my...”
– “Stockholm Syndrome” - Blink 182
I confess: I told friends I was bisexual when I...
I thought it was a phase. I thought being bisexual wasn’t seen as ‘extreme’ as being gay. I thought that if I dated a girl I would learn to become attracted to them. I was so sure I could change myself because being attracted to guys doesn’t feel completely right - part of me says “This is not what you should want” and the other part says “You want this...